Grief

It came quietly. It stayed longer.

It sits beside you as the world goes all numb.

Everything around you just vanishes into the air.

The environment feels heavy, but you gotta keep that smile on your face because we can't be weak in front of others.

Only the mirror attached to that wall has access to all your insecurities.

You always look for that shoulder to lean on, to forget all this grief thing but you are forgetting the fact that it has become your shadow now.

It will never leave you alone as long as you are in the dark.

You cry in the shower so no one hears it.

You laugh at dinner so no one asks.

You say "I'm fine" so many times that you almost start believing it yourself.

Almost.

So start picking yourself up from that ugly grief stage and get that smile back.

Sounded motivational, right ?

It is !!!!

but will it be easy ?

I doubt it. Just like you doubt yourself, wondering if you will ever be free from all of this.

Right now, I don't know the answer. Neither do you.

But one thing we all know

we can do it.

And that belief alone is enough to climb even Everest.

Grief doesn't announce itself like a happy moment.

It comes silently.

No warning. No knock on the door.

It just walks in and starts unpacking like it lives there.

And then one day you wake up and realise you have been carrying it so long you forgot what it felt like to be light.

You can either face it and defeat it once and for all, or it will eat you from the inside until there is no soul left to call yourself truly alive.

The grief will not wait for you to be ready.

It never did.

But neither will the version of you

that survives it.

So

what will you choose ?